self

weekend rocked.
Friday i spent the whole day making myslef feeling important. yes, i was the top priority on my list on that day.
Had cell harvest later that night.
Saturday came, as usual - afternoon wasted with nothin on my 'to do list' being checked.
Afternoon was Glad Tidingschurch first young adult service.
I must say, settings of the church-> BRILLIANT and FRESH!
pastor talked about "first things first", about how all of us should put God first in everything.

anyways, here comes Sunday.
planned to study econs the whole day. well, cover those part being tested tomorrow at least.
yes...topics all covered. Now, all i have to do is memorize what i've just studied.

I actually feel kinda bad for not hanging out with my friends tonight.
Not the 'battle of the bands', because i know i will feel left out anyway.
but i feel bad because my best friend/ ex-neighbour from Tawau is around Lagoon Perdana hanging out with some of his other friends. I told him i couldn't join him because i had to study. ~Damn, i am such a Liar.~
I don't know why, but i don't like hanging out -feeling guilty for not studyin at the same time. It saves me and the person i'm hanging out alot of time and effort.
I hate faking that i'm having a good time when there are some other things on my mind.
oh well, at least i gave him my house number so that he could visit me before he leaves. hehe

ME TIME

friday. Finally!
this week has been LONG! ...test,test and more tests.
wanted to release my stress after college yesterday.. but i was in formal wear.
instead i went home... and played basketball with my bro later that night.

half dead-> can't move... really enjoyed the game.

anyways... today i went Pyramid alone to have abit of a "ME TIME". Quality time with who better than myself. Treated myself to a fantastic lunch in Nandos. Watched Fantastic 4 and did abit of shopping on my own.

new GUnit T.

New Shoes. my long awaited green kicks

DC Shoe USA.

New shirt...A&Fitch

Formal wear

My 'semi formal" look

Thursday- suppose to be AUSMAT t-shirt day... Not this week!
we decided(well, the ausmat 'shot callers') since EE is around the corner... what better way to release tention than dressing up for college

went to college... found out most of the AUSMAT student weren't sporting. Only a few of us took the effort to look good. hehe.

Pictures? ... i think not. when us-who wore Formal were scattered everywhere.

thoughts

menezes

27-year-old Jean Charles de Menezes was shot eight times by plainclothes police who chased him into a London Underground station Friday, the day after four attempted bombings on the city's transit system. Menezes was innocent. Full story-> (cnn)

my thoughts? I think the police in London are Flippin' MORONS.
they are bloody copulatin' idiots!... 8 times?! 8 freakin bullets into an innocent dude. hmm..? i wonder why they chased him and the story pretty much ends there...
they chased him , shot him... 8 times. and then... think to themselves ..
" wait a minute, why did we shoot this dude? he looks like a suspect don't he... our bad~ "

other thoughts...
i am going to do better in IS this time (x5)
tomorrow i am going to look good in formal wear (x5)
~ oh yea, some of the AusMat trend setters decide to have 'formal wear' day tomorrow just for this week ~.. [ Time to release the Cam-Whore in ME!]


- nothin better than self-motivational thoughts-

self

in accounts class...
friends were talking about TEE...
about their EEs...
awards night were even mentioned! about who will be winning best student in whatever subject they are taking...
their goals and self expectation are really high. Nothing that i could imagine myself achieving any time soon.
I didn't take english for a reason. I know it will be tough, so i thought i could score well in ESL.
funny, even ESL i can't score! What about Applics? i aim for a pass... and even that it is a challenge for me. I am hoping to score in accounts,econs and Information System.

i was never an above average student EVER. even studying in AUSMAT... my goal is to achieve a TER that is enough to enter monash... if not..VU.
but Times have changed...
my dad sent me to Sunway college... paid for my education. To think about it (how one of my friends put it)... someone is paying you to study.
We should treat it like a job. Our job is suppose to get promoted to a better University.
the more i hang out with friends who has extremely high goals, the more i feel shitty .
thats some kind of encouragement/ motivation i guess.

self

Sue Lin: Sexuality or family?! sexuality or family?!
Group: Sexuality!
Sue lin: What topic?!!!
Some dude from group: INCEST!

just a conversation between Sue Lin and her moral group members after we skipped Moral class to discuss about our project.

and so it is... we picked INCEST for our Moral Class presentation.
discussion went on straight away. Pro and Cons!? what pro... ?

so yea... i was told off larr.. : why don't YOU contribute?!
i feel so useless in the group... there was some really good science student there talking about the physical/ bilogical effect of incest and stuff...
Pro and Cons pretty even as the ideas just kept coming in.
for me, i only can answer , its immoral and against my religion.

sometimes i feel those who don't believe in God has an advantage of having a point of view/ opinion on the social issues coz they ARE free thinkers!

accounts class... Ai Yin talked about harry potter latest book AGAIN. i made a silly joke of her having a crush on harry potter.
then she said...
Ai Yin : vic.. for future references, i don't have a crush on anyone.
Vic : oh. ok (paused...) what about you pammy?
Pam: Thats non of your business!!!

kena told off again!!
could have just told me that she didn't want me to know...
could have just said she was uncomfortable answering that question..
didn't have to give me that tone.
my bad... shouldn't be so busy body in the first place. NOW I JUST DON'T WANT TO GIVE A ...

shoot me!

i am so dead.

today had 2 tests. Thank God IS is postponed till thursday.
So i left accounts on Wednesday and IS on thursday. Then...preparation for Evaluation Exam!!!
came home from college around 6.30 today.
I was super sick the whole day... reached home... took a long nap. from 8- 9.30

now its 1.30am... suppose to have a good night sleep. (raining outside some more)...
too bad, i drank coffee after my nap... dumb ass!

still sick...tears coming down from my eyes, running nose, soar throat and dead tired. I am abit stoned... no emotions/expressions or what so ever at the moment..

guess what i'm craving for?! DMX... funny larr..
can't sleep... but i want to hear gansta rap...
oh yea.. i know why! i screwed up my econs and accounts test.

off to WAR.

'Shout unto God'- one of my favourite song from the latest hillsong united album ' Look To You'.
the song starts like " the enemy has been defeated..."


as i am revising for my accounts, info systems and econs at the same time (ya lah, last minute study)... i remember my IS lecturer telling my class that Database question will be super hard.
"everyone will face judgment day..Many of you will FAIL!!!" or something like that. At that very moment, i was quite confident... my head was thinking like "BAH!... i'm not afraid, and i'm gonna prove you wrong!"

just like in the song ..."the enemy has been defeated..."
No.. itz not that i am sure i'm gonna do well...// Itz just that... i know HE is with me through facing all this obstacles (tests/assesments and unfun stuff in college... haha!)
especially discouragement from my own lecturer. hehe

hmm... its 2.15 a.m now... not confident in accounts. IS and econs pretty much done already.
i sure hope my confidence in doing well in IS are NOT just loadz of crap!

Passionate Night

today is one of my most productive Saturday ever... busy-at least.
woke up early... not as early as i wanted though.
yea, went to college to do my IS project with my group.
the Project is moving smoothly. I am happy. hehe.
was in college from 9 till 3p.m. ate Crispy Chicken Rice for my late lunch... Mmm!
Yes... eventhough super busy, i went to the "PASSION" concert in Glad Tidings church later.

the concert was nothing less than AMAZING and AWSOME!... Pastor Jullie was certainly electrified. haha. She talked about what's passion all about. The best part of the concert was of cause the altercall. I went out there.. prayed by Pastor Jullie herself.
Boy... did i feel the heat. I can feel the passion in me, flame for Him was just flowing through me..
really wonderful experience!

i have been doing my revision, listening to hillsongs united, blogging and short naps from 12 a.m till now. 3.40 a.m. Yep.. definitely one of my most productive saturdays ever!

I'm done with IS, econs (1/2) .. accounts(not yet)- me in big trouble.

~end~ i vant to sleep!

Tracting.

Cell Harvest postponed.
had Tracting (passing the CONCERT flyers) instead.
Sunita called me during my IS class... she told me about the minor change with so much excitement. lol ...
yep.. so we went ASIA CAFE for tracting.
people there are not the friendliest. All give the weird stare at you when you are trying to talk to them.. CHILAKA!!!

FUN though... have to study now.. for real.
going to go college early tomorrow to finish up my IS project.

end~

Vy Like Tat Van~!?!

nothing seems to be going my way.
first- i am supposed to lead a group for my IS Project. Progressing but not too fruitful.
i went to one of my group member's place to do the work after CF (welcoming week)..
we did the project from 7.30 till 11.30. I went home around 12.15.
Second- suppose to be home to finish my ESL assignment... tomorrow will be due date.
guess what?- my printer Ain't working. yes... i am in deep shit.


Why LIKE THAT ONE!?! - nothing is going my way!!! i got help from a friend to print some stuff for me. Tomorrow i have to take the stuff... quickly bind it and pass it up to my ESL teacher... ALL WHILE Accounts class will be going on. i don't mind spelling the word again. D.e.e.p S.h.i.t!

Have to rush most of my revisions tomorrow afternoon. WE'll be having cell harvest tomorrow night. Praying that it'll be a success. Oh man~ i'm tired./

self

i wish i could delete my previous post, but THAT WAS how my day went which wasn't really great.
but if i were to sum up my day (20/7/05). It'll be described as one word only. " AWSOME!"

after my long day... i went to church for a 'cell harvest' rehearsal and prayer meeting.
okay, so the 'cell harvest' thing didn't go as plan. All the main people couldn't come.
i was dissapointed and pissed at first... sacrificed my revision time and go church only to be dissapointed with their excuses.

anyhow... when the prayer meeting started- things just changed.
hmm.. for me.. that was one of the most powerful prayers i experienced and heared EVER..
especially when we~young adults prayed for the upcoming 'PASSION CONCERT'.

all the glory to HIM.

need a BREAK!

cell harvest is just around the corner. yea- 2 more days to be exact.
preparation for it is abit rush. My cell is supposed to do a sketch. at first i thought i was in charge. This was because i was appointed to think up for ideas and meet up whenever they are planning the 'cell harvest'. Anyways, i'm suppose to attend a rehearsal in church later. I am so busy! yesterday, some of my cell members went to dinner and discuss about the sketch... i was too busy and studied at home instead. Now, rehearsal... can't let them down.. have to make this 'cell harvest' a success. However, i agreed to go before they told me the location was in church and we will be joining to prayer meeting too. Nothing wrong with it... just that i won't be able to finish revising most of my college stuff.

Today was a pretty cool day for me... minus some shit i faced later in class.
i was supposed to dress up formally in class for my ESL presentation which is disagree with the topic: same sex marriages should be legalized.

instead of the usual long sleeve and neck tie... i decided to wear my BATIK.
woohoo.. The ATTENTION i got!~ lol. my presentation went well.. but outshoned by a few classmates of mine.

yes.. was abit exhausted when i entered accounts class. We got back our previous test result.
guess what i got? 30%! from 81% down to 30%... this wasn't even the hard part in accounts yet!

nyways.. i rushed back from college because i was uncomfortable with the BATIK. went home, took my bath... and here i am in college again. Just finish discussing my IS project with my group. Feeling helpless because the project is not going anywhere at all. darn~

i'll be going church later.. hope it all goes smoothly.. and i will still be able to read up on some sutff before i go to bed.

Passion Concert 

Back from Back to Basics retreat

Having a pretty tight schedule for the next few weeks myself.
let me see- ESL presentation will be on Wednesday.
Next week- IS project due date, Accounting test (open/close), Econs assesment.
AusMat- one week dry, one week so damn busy.
However, my work was all put aside as i had myself a retreat this weekend. The B2B (back to basics)retreat held by Glad Tidings church. It was all worth it.
The pictures i took was terrible... most of them turn out pretty bad.
oh well, there is an official website for the B2B retreat pics.
i really think that EVERY one who went was really blessed and touched by the annointing of God.

i am quite surprise that i am feeling well at the moment. The last time i came back from genting was when i had the Sunway CF camp. I remembered having headache 2-3 days straight.

Tomorrow- back to college again. MAN~! looking forward to next week's 'young adult' service.
It will be the launch of Glad Tidings "young adult' service. It will be blast as we are kicking it off with a concert. Its gonna kick major butt! it is called 'Passion' concert.

i think i hit something.

feeling shitty.
not as this moment. Thats because i had a great time watching movie and hanging out with Dave, Nat and shobz.
but my day sure didn't start well.
Went to college- first class was IS.
expected that the 'surprise' test was today. But teacher told us that the test will be tomorrow.
Finally, NO more SURPRISES!!!
oh yea, passed up my IS assignment 3. Got a new project that i have to pass up in another 2 weeks time. We drawed locks... and i was in one of the best groups in class. 1 chun + hardworking chic, 1 computer expert, and 1 hardworking dude. BUT NOOOoooo, my group had too much smart asses, so what did the lecturer do!~ He traded me to another group that most probably need someone with my caliber. lol.

ok... so here's the problem. In the new group- my members includes a average, hardworkind student. A foreign dude and 1 pretty chun+ not the brightest+ not the most hardworking chic in class. So frustrated- of all people... Lecturer thought that i am good enough to lead this bunch of people. I would preffer the previous group because i won't have to lead the team- i am just a average student compared to them.

after that, i went to ESL class. I handed my esl project draft. Lecturer gave me a D. HAHA. very funny. I am definitely not in grooviest mood in this. That means i have to redo the thing.

Accounts class was next. Test was today . Screwed it AGAIN!!!

guess what do I call these type of situations (when nothing is going right)-
BANG BALLS!!! (my dad use this word whenever a football team hit the post more than twice and loose in the end)

so it is painful... just like like literally banging your balls.

ausmat hotties - yes! including me!!! 

Pinkies- we look good ;P 

Me and Nat 

Shobz and Dave 

Dave and Nat 

self.

i did pretty well in accounts for my first topical test. which is 75% in the first question and 100% for my second. Though there are people who got 100% for both question, i am quite satisfy with what i so called 'achieved'. My friend said that he regreted taking accounts instead of science subjects... why? because accounts is easy and most people can score in it. So where does this leaves me?

thinking that i might be able to excel in one subject- accounts ... but achieving average results compared to my peers.
Well, this definitely motivates me to work harder~
but still, it won't be easy.

went to Moral class today. the LAN lecturer had an 'interesting' topic to discuss with some of the more -outspoken- smartass in class. It was about *marriages and sex*, about how it is wrong to be married just to have sex and have sex without being married. I find myself speechless...
not because i don't have any knowledge about these 'shitz' going on in our world today~
I am presently doing a research on "same sex marriages" for my esl project.

Its just that i find myself not having my own point of view or even a bloody opinion.
Most people READ and have really creative minds whether it is to express themselves or their views. For me, all i know and all my views are influenced by television. yes... i don't read enough since young. But hey!~, it is good enough to make me some friends. That is just better than great for me- it is GOOD! (stupid joke from 'friends')

I am just thankful that people around me or people i hang out with accepts me for who i am.
The dude~ The wannabe~ the poser~ the not so bright smartass in class (sometimes).

Singing in the Rain

*my weekend*
Saturday * supposed to be busy* day for me.
have to do research on my ESL and IS assignments.
Have to read up my IS.

so.. yep.. i think i did all of that. (started the assignments, and half way through the IS)

Saturday sucked- and thats how it end.

Sunday
Woke up and realized i overslept (again, suppose to study).
so went to church. Youth Service today was really really awsome.
Prayer and worship- thats all we (youths) need.
Worship team put away their original play list,
pastor put away her sermon and allowed the annointing to flow.

after church- i had to visit 'House of Joy' (some orphanage i guess) for a moral studies project.
Oh man, i feared this project. I am So so bad with kids, never was good with them anyways. I blamed my screwed up childhood for that, but i have already put away that bitterness in me. So it was like a challenge for me. Met with my group members in college about 2.15... but only left around 3 something after waitingour LAN teacher-manatahu she Fong Fei Kei us. haha!!!
and yea... search for that place till 3.45- got problems such as the road we suppose to use on contruction and shits like that.

okok~ we FiNAlly reached our destination... first thing we did was set up the food we prepared earlier (well, i was in church- the rest of them prepared earlier). Yep, i did put in effort to talk to them... it was abit hard for the fellas in my team because in that place- all the kids either speaks mandarin or cantonese only. yea... after our tea party, we talked to them abit more and played games with them. UnO- sue lin's stuff... hope they enjoy themselves.

i was thinking a few days ago- won't the kids in the orphan feel bored with visitors already.
Almost everyday there will be colleges students visiting them for their college projects. And i think that the kids will have lower self-esteem knowing that they need other people to please them ALL the time.

I really asked them about it. I talk to one of the oldest guy in 'house of joy', he was about 15 years old. I asked him whether he was bored with all these visitation... and he replied " depends on their way of visitation" and then " if its more about games, he says it gets bored but if the people come and talk to them.. he preffers it".

actually wanted to play basketball with them wan.. but the rain just started pouring.
so yea.. that was my sunday.

-end-

LIFE check..

friday morning (2.30 am)
doing some findings on Information Systems terms and how stuff works in ' NERD-LANDia'
such as 'parity checking' and 'Cyclic Redundancy Checking'.

came back from college pretty late today- after CF and having dinner at Medan (i must say... the food there beginning to suck). Reached home...Sat Back and decided watch he news. goodness! LONDON was under terror attacks...
WauLauEE! Just 1 day before, they were the happiest country in the world getting the news that they will be hosting the 2012 Olympics. ~Damn Sad larr...

Okay! ...Life in College has been great. Sure its still stressful...
i have to like pass up an assignment, 1 project draft and also sit for 2 tests next week.
Fine... its very stressful- But i think its still not as bad as first module.
not sure...hm- maybe it was applics. oh well... maybe i was more serious that time?~!..
not with studies... but everything was just so tight.
Nowadays... friends around me are so much FUN to be with!
they are Funny, open minded (too open minded at times)...lol , LOOSE ( don't complicate life) and.. ya!~ its such a joy to be around them.

break time over- time to get back to work
end~

I don't hate mondays

war of the worlds

This morning- went college felt abit lonely. ~ New account class in the afternoon..
no friends with me in the morning when i was in college.

The college was packed with new A-levels, CIMP, MUFY students... AUSMAT students abit hard to find already.

first class was IS. Mr Lawrence warn us that ' War of the Worlds' is a crap show.
i kinda agree after being stubborn and watching the show anyway.. haha.

had a Very Fun time out... i came out from accounts class early thinking that i will meet Dave and Natalie in cafeteria and rush to Pyramid. Their Bio teacher didn't really allow.. so stress... 4.10 is the show! our usual class only end at 4.30.. haha!

yep. so Shobz can't make it (not sure what reason)... we 3 went there.. got there just in time. Had a really FUN ** dinner at HARTZ chicken Buffet - where we met Ravi and Gideon. THe ice cream made G, Ravi and Dave high~ for real!.. lol

now sitting in front of computer... belly aching... so damn full...
oh well... this so much more fun compared with my weekend. haha!

hotel rwanda

hotel Rwanda


Saturday- (2nd July)
i think today is going to be an ' i love africa' Day for me.
woke up and felt extremely bored. I knew that i would not go out the whole day because my friends couldn't hang out with me today. So i watched "Hotel Rwanda".

Rating :8/10
By far, one of the most touching and saddest movie i watched this year.
This reminds me about the movie i watched for an ESL assesment - "killing Fields"

there are abit of similarities in their themes such as violence and determination to survive through hard times.

"Hotel Rwanda" is an ethically rich story of a heroic african who responds to deep dimentions of violence in a chaotic world by widening his circle of compassion.

there was this scene where The Western Country tried to help people to escape the violence from Rwanda... but they only took the foreigners (whites) with them and protected them. It is said that the Rwanda people are not worth anything to them.. so no point helping them anyways. I was really sad - abit angry of the discrimination they faced even in hard times such as then.


at the end of the movie - there was a really touching song sang by Wyclef Jean. Awsome song! - it is called ' million voices'


Oh yea- tonight i'll be spending my night watching live 8. A concert to fight poverty in Africa!~