tired

i am tired because of the liverpool vs ac milan match.

i have no idea why did i even watch that match... i was hopping liverpool will win...
and expected ac to whoop their butts...

yea... so i watched till 5.30 am

when the penalty shoot out ended... i was too tired to react.
just happy to know who won ... and slept

the effects is still not gone yet... i do not have enough sleep~

so abit moody this few days... but not moody enough to show anger or those sort...
maybe to tired to use so much strenght on petty stuff like i used to.

alright ... something hi me hard yesterday
i went to Christian Fellowship yesterday... ( luckily i didn't oversleep at the library before CF started)... oh my Goodness...when i woke up in the library... had problems lifting my arms and standing up..- the whole body *kejang*

in our KG (group)... we talked about ~Encouragement~

yes... i think i'm not bad at that...
somehow i got the ability to make other feel better than they think
~ maybe its because i ask them to compare themselves with ME... hehe...sad but true.

on the other hand... i have been more discouraging rather than encouraging..
during reflection time... i remembered how i've pissed or hurted everyone around me...
reason: fuck... i don't know... i am a jerk?

here's the main point... how to be a good encouragement to others?
first of all.... to encourage others/// people have to trust you.
and how to have people trusting us... by being smarter with words. (any where and any time)
who wants to ask encouragement from someone who have put down almost everyone in the past?!~

this really opened up my eyes... never thought of it that way/.