Holy but weird?

(friday 13-night)
went to Glad Tidings Churh for an inter-Cell meeting
special speakers: team from Hawaii
topic: how to interact with God.

don't know whether to post my thoughts about this or not.
its a pretty sensitive issue.

Because the teachings of the Hawaii team don't really mix with my beliefs.
They Define worship as affectionately adoring God ...
so in order to interact with Him... you have to love hin with affection (biblical)

this is what they taught us : close your eyes...
imagine Jesus in front of you
breathe in slowly, breathe out slowly...enjoy His presence.
you can touch him ... touch his hair... ( heh?)..
hold him... hug him if you want (i did ~ imagine) ... kiss him
(ok.....hmm) AND THEN hear what Jesus want to say to you or
experience.

so okey... their teachings are abit different... i would say much more LOVING compared to our normal ways.... even trying to imagine myself doing this affectionate actions with Jesus scared me abit...

coz its like " what the hell am i doing to Jesus... and why the hell do i have to do these In order- just to hear him speak to me... its just freakin weird!"

from what i know... we as christians
what makes us special is how our God first loved us and we need not to do anything to gain that from our Father...
so i wasn't comfortable last night... i'm not againts their teaching...
its just that...
the God i know- is the one you have to bow down your head and pray to
the One you kneel down and worship Him
the One who is going to send you to hell if you are not saved.
Not the one we have to touch/feel/kiss/and let him know how much we love
him (even earthly fathers don't do that with their sons!~)
Now, its as if christianity has a new meaning to me...

i'm actually looking forward to Sunday service... they will talk more about that..
we'll see what happens then.