Emotional Me

Last sunday- in church...
there are some people who was suppose to pray for my need...
guess what i told them?... i said that i was happy, and i don't need it at the moment.

I was wrong...
i found this out only last night,
i had a long and emotional talk with my bro last night after coming back from the freezing cyber cafe.

he asked a simple question/ suggestion.. whether we should get a car...
i got emo, and said that we don't need it... as he was going to leave KL anyway...
after that, i got carried away.. and talked about how useless the house in kl was to ME... if it wasn't because of the house, i might be studying somewhere else/ my sis might enter a better college... My father intended we 3 siblings stay in this house... but my brother is going to leave..
So i said some stuff which i was holding inside me for quite some time....

yeah... and then suddenly i cried. The first thing went on my mind was my parents back in Tawau.. guess the word "homesick" meant what i just felt...

so we continued our daily prayer together... everything was alright then..

i did something i though i'd never think i'll do...
i sms-ed my mom...saying i miss her...~

yeah.. maybe i need ~that~ prayer afterall... ~ :(