Home sweet Home

now that its my break...
can really enjoy my house... spend abit too much time here i must say..
compared to -during college hours... home was just the place to sleep...

busy doing assignment- eventhough its suppose to be my break... bloody tough... got problems..
last night i went for a 'short' prayer meeting in church...

at first i thought i would regret going... but i didn't//
coz we prayed for a reason.. the 'heal the nation' concert.. that the concert would touch loves and bring them back to Christ...

plus... the prettiest girl in church said hi... hehe ..

anyways... tonight i'll go to a friends church for another concert...
then tomolo another concert... haiyo... as if too free... well, maybe i am..hehe.

end of first module

today was the last day of my first module..
in order to celebrate it~ my survival of the first module of AUSMAT...
i went Pyramid- alone.

bought the tickets of "the jacket" and had an hour to spare till the movie starts..
i went in memory lane- so many cute stuff to buy for a special someone .. i don't have one...
walked out from that store sad... hehe> thinking of people i love... thinking of how i seldom i see them... missing them... and feeling lonely..

yea..so watched the movie..
the experience was sucky... i wanted to be lonely... but it was pretty cramped in my row..
on my left, 2 big mouth... on my right, 1 malay couple touch here touch there and more touching..

the show was confusing...unrealistic...very very slow.. and RM6 is still seems like i paid extra RM5.. kiddin..it wasn't THAT bad... i give it a 6/10

so to sum up what could have been a romantic experience but i did alone today...
1, went secret recipe and ate the best cakes
2, went to A&W
3, went to watch a movie
4, pharmacy ( too romantic ... if u know wat i mean..lol)

end my lonely with shopping...
almost went up the bus with my bag left in one of the stores... hehe
ran up there and got it back....

end~..

Furious

last weekend, there is a 'guest' staying at my place...
this dude- he was a cell leader to my bro and my sis and took good care of them when they were in KL.

to me, this guy is a nobody... he didn't do anything for me.

to my mom, he is like a god son...
so when he stayed... my bro, sis and mom asked me to be nice and treat him well...

I tried... it didn't go very well...
~ i was warned earlier, that this guy is very straight forward ( everything i dislike in a person).."but so nice to your jie jie and gogo" ~ thats how my mom would say to me...

well... it was true... he pissed me off to da max!
It was on a saturday... he watched "cruel intention" (not a bad movie)...
after that, he continue sitting on his butt watching "agent cody banks"( for kids!~)
i was studying in my room at that time...
after he finish those 2 movies, he went to my sis room and have a chat... he was expecting a friend that time ( a girl)..

so when i came out from my room and have a break ~ he came out about the same time~
he told me that the girl is here...

i was like :okie...
my sis opened the door for this girl... the girl said hi~
i was like : hi...

and this dude came to me( dunno wat the fuck is his problem)...
saying : hey, i don't want to say loudly, i just want to let you know... you are like the so-called 'couch potato'...

i was like : oh.. okie..// but in my mind.. i was like ( who the fuck do you think you are? being a fucking guest to my sis n bro ~NOT MINE~... telling me such stupid things at such a stupid time..

i wanted to give him a slap already... motherfuck...

damn it!~ i told this to my brother the next day (when his guest finally left)...
so pissed! i thought to myself, he is a nobody to me... i shouldn't care what he says to me...
but it is because my brother and sis still back him up... i feel so angry..

i actually told my bro and sis to TRY understanding me...
if i don't treat him as nice as my mom wanted me to... if i don't the hospitality in me...
my sis n bro have to understand- our guest has done no shit for me... and he is still everything i dislike... so understand i don't welcome him...~

i don't feel bad by being pissed- because he is real asshole...even my bro can't deny
but what i'm afraid is... this anger in me... i am trying so hard...
help me~

lonely day

time to blog again~
can't upload any pics... crap..want to change to xanga oledi..

yea, so yesterday i went to school for applics class...
got back my test result ~ 2 words: like shit..
so anyways, i went to pyramid after that - to celebrate this "great achievment" ...

my friends decided to go play ice skating... i thought otherwise..
i went for a show- ALONE.. thats rite..alone

coach carter- pretty good show i heard.... so i decided to watch that one (the only one worth wild watching alone)..

to be honest, i really enjoyed my own company - maybe used to it already..
if i were to be alone, i can cry and no one will care, i can eat pop corn - no sharing! woohoo

The Show= its an inspirational film about a high school coach who has the balls to suggest that athletes must make their mark in the classroom as well as on the basketball court
its your usual ghetto movie lar..
got sex/violence/ basketball/ black music.. pretty good moral too.
its not about winning.. its about something deeper...something that you will remember your whole life/ something people search their whole lfe/ something that won't be forgotten..

something that i can't seem to remember how to explain...kekeke ( watch it yourself)

after the show... met up with my friends again... (still preffer lonely time)

went home- and didn't study... though monday is my econs exam.. hehe

sick and tired of being and sick and tired

this week..
i feel like this week is my weakest point of my life (physically)...
got headache, fever... and then..
Food Poisoning... damn it!

just wanted to update this blog...

CF camp - Springforth

Friday -evening
went to Genting for a cf camp...
nothing happen then... took a few pics only

first session - talked about losing an opportunity to experience a greater relationship with God if we FEAR serving him...
because when it comes to God- THERE IS NO RISK.
lesson: GIANTS WILL FALL BECAUSE THEY ARE IN OUR WAY DOING GOD'S WORK!

second session - talked about How God take whoever... work in their lives.. and brand them
and the speaker asked us - God is the beginning and the end~ What happened in between?
and lastly, we can overcome every obstacles if we take a walk with God.
lesson : NEVER GIVE UP ( the example given was an EAGLE)

third session- taking no short cuts ( Noah's ark and God's plan for him)
-God is in the detail. without the details, there will be consequences..
lesson: GOD HAVE A TASK FOR ALL OF US, BE THE PERFECT SERVANT.
YOU DISOBEY, YOU DELAY

God did speak to me, i felt that its time for me to serve... but i don't think i will be free..
But... having a relationship with God is much more important...yea... one of the leader said if we can't serve...at lease read the bible and pray constantly...

the camp was loads of FUN... we played prank on 2 people (the camp commander and one birthday boy)

the pranks was almost similar... we threw cold water on them outside the place we stayed and let them freeze....muahahaha...

made some new friends too...

BUT... now (monday)...
i am having a pretty bad fever... yesterday when i came back from Genting was worst...
so... i am struggling stuying... my test is tommorow... :(

ouch!~ [ explicit content]

2 days ago, i had a little embarassing moment in college..
i said bye to a friend and almost trip over something...
especially i was saying bye to a dude... if it was a pretty chic - maybe lar... mesmerized until like that.

my friend -Kev had a good laugh about it lar..
he gave me a ride home...
when i step out of the care/ about walking to the lift... the floor was wet...
so i avoided the wet-test( water fell from the roof - part)... but in the end i still sliped and fell /
hurt my knees... damn shitty larr... after avoiding the danger i still got my ass on the wet ground..

so during the prayer meeting (among my bro and sis), my sis praid that God will protect me from more accident or phisical obstacles..

Yesterday... i told my kev about my "little accident" ... and he laughed and say that it wasn't my lucky day//
It didn't get better at all... as i was chatting with him at the hallway, i almost slipt.. yea...
something bigger is gonna come later that day i predict ;p

true enough// i had " THE GUY PROBLEM"... had some difficulties when i was peeing... (sorry for the extraS ) ... its gross but all true..
the reason of the problem- i spent my whole afternoon in the library without going to take a piss lar..

so when i went cf... - i tried to ( self- cure) the problem in the toilet...
it worked- thank GOD... but i slipt in the toilet after that...
hurt the knee i previously injured... so ...shit...
my sis prayer wasn't a prayer of faith maybe (kiddin)...
my knee is blue black now... damn SUI larr this 2 days//

today going CF camp... hopefully nothing bad will happen to me!

Upswing

there are 4 pre-university program offered in my college.
- A-levels
- AUSMAT
- MUFY
- CIMP

well, i'm at AusMat- to students from MUFY and CIMP, we are the nerds of the college. To those who are studying in A-levels, we are the most boring people among the other 3.But for us AUSMAT students, MUFY and CIMP students are the HIPpest, Coolest and not too bright students in our college...and for the A-levels... they are BRIGHT people who have no life... hehe

but honestly, eversince i've been studying AUSMAT... i don't find the joy in it...
it is so NOT happening compared to the other programs...

TILL YESTERDAY, we were suppose to be in one of the lecture hall (pretty big) to choose out subjects for the next module...
when i went in... i was like : HELL NO!>!
there were so many students... never seen some of them at all...
and before choosing subjects, the head-teacher talked about our t-shirt (FINALLY~)...
and our telematch ( FINALLY~)... so i felt...: HEY, not bad what ~

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in other news, my house in KL is COMPLETE!!!...
got tv, ps2, computer, INTERNET( woohoo!~), dvd player... and place to stay lar.. hehe

going to CF camp on friday- end

self

to sum up my week..
there is only one thing on my mind besides the coming test and assignment that i have to do...

KL people's popularity~
Now that i'm inKL, ofcourse i would like to be in the popular group... mixing with all the most COOL people in college..

but people in KL is different from Tawau.. In Tawau, you won't feel intimidated by the "popular" people. Okey, most popular people are very 'satu macam' one lar... -Lin C ( arrogant)

but in Tawau , "they" LIN C for no reason ...
they act cool when they are not/ they act rich just because their father spoiled them abit/ they act good looking when they look like shit...

on the other hands- KL 'cool' people are filthy rich/ good looking / Cool/ Smart/ - they don't even need to act it out...

so when I see them beeing arrogant... ~ what can i do?? ... they have the qualification to do so..
true or not?... *sight~

so in cell group on friday (my first time in cell)...
It was about God's will for us...
and one of the verse says that God chooses COMMON people... (the rest didn't matter to me that much...lol)
yea... so i felt much better...
i also had a talk with my bro about this matter, and he said they are not worth my time...
but still, i want to TRY/EXPERIENCE the fun of it... eventhough i know being in a popular group is like being in a " FELLOWSHIP OF ALL ARROGANT BITCHES "..

its a gathering of people who careless about anyone but themself... thats why theres lot of backstabing goin on in this type of group..

sorry if i've offended you 'popular' people- thats how i feel...
maybe i envy these people, maybe i just hate them... who knows... till i join one.. hehe

Goin get tough, tough gets tougher!

thursday- IN sunway Christian Fellowship

message: about David's preparation againts Goliath...

while David was taking care of the sheeps , his brothers was enjoying themselves... and maybe going into war... (i not so sure... i only know David quite poor thing)

David had many challenges when he was taking care of the sheeps, he had to kill off wild animals that wanted to attack the sheeps ... ie: bears, and .. wild animals larr...

so... when Goliath came... to David, Goliath was nothing! Goliath was no larger and stronger than the bears and wild animals he so often faced when taking care of his father's sheeps..

the Teachings~ we are like David, we are like David taking care of his sheeps ( being lonely, not having training for battles, having talent for no one to see)... but what we don't know is..

there is a bigger test / a bigger battle for us/ a bigger obstruction in the future>> but we are being prepared even now eventhough we are having all our struggles.. ie: Education, work or pressure in life.

it was a pretty strong msd for me.. yea..
i am having lots of struggles now...

first- i am bloggin in a cyber cafe which has a internet connection worst than Tawau... hehe
seriusly, i am having econs test every week... i am having my applics test soon..
and .. i am having a christian fellowship camp just before and after 2 of the econs test..

but i am very happy in cell group and also in church lar... so... its ALL good!~

lazy lazy

I just finish my Applicable maths test...
just got my result yesterday..
i just finish my econs test...
will get the result by next week..

first of all, my applic's result>> i just barely passed..

there was a name list... categorized in 3 category..
pass... fail...and (byebye ur out of my class)...
i was just above the fail line... yea...lucky me...hehe

and econs test was okey, easy... can say.

really can relax now!~ not*..
i will have my second applics assignment later this afternoon.. so yea..
AND econs test next friday... hmm... can i handle it... ofcoz can lar... wif lots of difficulty..

i was born for this type of shit!~... muahaha..
stress drive ppl mad....

Stress Free- NOT

thursday - The day... my first test in college..
it was applics maths~ so i wasn't really excited bout it.

yea...after it was over, i didn't grumble because i couldn't do the question...
instead i was pretty relieved~ can get a pass i'll be satisfied already... hehe

i attended Sunway College Christian Fellowship in the evening... me and my sis took off early though.., we went to 1 Utama to celebrate one of her friend's birthday...
i was so happy, coz i had never been to 1 U before... hehe

so we went Pizza Hut, *-*"
go all the way to eat something that Tawau has...

but the place was so big... so i couldn't go "wet/ Loong" enough in 1 U~sob sob

so damn tired after that, went home (since morning went to college till now baru sampai rumah)
couldn't even do my homework after that...

yeah... so u would think that i could enjoy my weekend ... think again..
i have econs test this monday..

oh dear, i am so bc~ this is so not me, i had never worry about my homework ever, my test don't mean anything to me... but now in KL, my parent pay so much for my edu...

they are like paying me (as in a job) ... so my responsibility is to study... and do a good job...
i am trying my very best... so tired now~